Ever since I saw Kristanna Loken's character Paige, (ohmigodshe'ssoooohot) in the L-Word, season 4, paired up with Shane, I have rented or watched everything I can get my hands on with Kristanna Loken in it. I've watched The Dark Kingdom, Bloodrayne, & Air Panic are on their way. I've seen several episodes of the tv series, Painkiller Jane, which is really fun, and I'm waiting for Lime Salted Love to be released. She looks better with a little meat on her bones, in Terminator 3, she was awesome, but thin and machine-like.
I'm like a junkie, trying to get my fix. Why am I obsessing over her? I asked myself the same question. I dated a woman for a short time this past fall that looked a lot like her. Actually for me, the woman I dated came first, because I never noticed Kristanna before I met this woman. She's not as tall, Kristanna is 5'11''. She has dark hair and eyes, but the same facial features, the slight cleft chin, the thick yummy lips, the same body type, and they carry themselves similarly. That must be it, I thought. I was extremely physically attracted to this woman, so it made sense.
Then a couple days ago, someone was asking me about when I first knew I was gay. I said, I think I've always known. I found out there was a name for it, and there were others like me, when I was 13, but growing up I always had crushes on babysitters, and teachers, especially in the 4th grade. My teacher's name was SueEllen Aiken. I had one of those wallet sized pictures of her I carried around with me. I put it under my plate when I ate dinner, and I remember my mother teasing me, "You have a crush on your teacher." I did have a crush on her. I got all straight A's that year because I listened to every word she said. I wanted to impress her. She even threw the football with me at recess a couple times, to a tiny lesbian, that's like going steady. She was a goddess, but alas, she broke my heart at the end of the school year when she announced she was marrying some dufus, and moving to one of those square states in the middle of the country. What kind of woman teases you with football, then runs off and gets married?! Oh, the humanity! I was telling this story when a picture of SueEllen came into my head, and I'll be damned if she doesn't look like Kristanna Loken! Wow, sometimes you don't realize just how far back stuff goes. It's crazy, but it's true. I wish I had her picture from back then, so I could post them side by side.
Come to Mama!